It Has Been 16 Months Already

16 months. I never expected that we will keep being together. Yet, i have to admit that i'm a bit admiring you because of your stubborness to stay with me who is like a stone, you said. But i think it still needs more time. Much more time, dude. Will you stay?

It has been 16 months. Sometimes the memory came to me and screw it all. But, when i have fallen, it will hard for me to stand up. When i have fallen, please hold me tight.

It is cliche! What i have written is just like nothing.

What i want to say is... It has been 16 months. Try to look back what we have through, cieeee

It has been 16 months, is there any other 16 months for us? Let us see, then.

The Mine

you're the mine

the man that I love

makes everything's fine

my love flies to the roof

to the cloud and moon

and back to you

 

you're the melody of my day

with me sing along night and day

when you go away

i'm here to stay

never want to say goodbye

'cause you're the lovely mine

 

the sunny days come around

you'll be the summer breeze

you keep me safe and sound

while you make the storm sneeze

 

you're the mine

i want to own you forever

having some wine

in the frosty winter

 

you're the mine

i want to see your face

in every morning I wake

am I always in your mind?

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Love Notes

cinta itu membuat seseorang terlihat tanpa cela

sesungguhnya, cinta memang membutakan, dan juga buta

tapi di balik kebutaan sebuah cinta, di sanalah ketulusan

namun sayang, di balik cinta itu membutakan,

cinta itu membuat kita lupa bahwa tak ada yang sempurna

12 Little Things

First, the way you wanted to fix me.

Second, the way you made me slowly in love.

Third, the way you treated me.

Fourth, how we spent the days together.

Fifth, how you always be there when I need you.

Sixth, the way you made me upset.

Seventh, the way you made me silently smile.

Eighth, the way we laughed on something that wasn't really funny.

Ninth, about the ice cream, and chocolate.

Tenth, the feelings around us; love, miss, faith, anger, happy, sad, confuse, bored, etc.

Eleventh, the patience of yours on facing me in many moods of mine.

Twelfth, you are an ordinary boy becomes a special boy. I love you just the way you are because you have loved me the way I am since the first time. Thank you for have been with me for 12 months! Not an easy journey, right? :p But you're succeed ^_^

<3 K. G.

sederhana saja...

Cewek. Makhluk yang dicap sebagai makhluk yang paling susah dimengerti. Terkadang saya mengakui hal itu, tapi terkadang juga menyangkal hal itu. Sebenarnya cewek itu sederhana saja, hanya cukup diikuti alurnya. Seperti yang saya kutip dari sebuah film, "Wanita itu terbuat dari tulang rusuk pria. Tulang rusuk itu bengkok, bukan lurus. Jika dipaksa untuk lurus, maka dia akan patah. Namun jika diikuti, kamu akan mendapatkan segalanya."

See? Cewek itu bukan susah dimengerti, hanya butuh orang yang tepat untuk mengikutinya saja. Sederhana saja...

Sesederhana itu. Setiap cewek dengan cowok yang tepat ya nggak akan ribet. Walaupun sesekali cowoknya pasti keribetan, I think that's not a big problem.

Cewek yang suka membaca, sederhana saja... berikan dia buku, maka dia akan bahagia.

Sesederhana hari kemarin. Kentang goreng dan spaghetti, juga sedikit es krim. Matahari terbenam dan kebersamaan.

Ternyata kebahahagiaan memang sering kali sederhana saja. Sesederhana kita tertawa bersama setelah cukup lama tak bersua. Sesederhana mendengar tawamu yang lepas.

Sederhana saja....
Ternyata aku merindukan kita.

Bagaimana tiga bulan nanti?

Tiga bulan ke depan akan menjadi berbeda dengan yang sebelumnya. Kalau sebelumnya di pagi atau siang hari kita bisa mencuri-curi waktu untuk bersama, tiga bulan ke depan tidak. Mungkin bisa, tapi tentu berbeda, kan?

Praktek Kerja Lapangan. Ya, itulah yang sedang kamu jalani sekarang. Sebagai syarat akhir sekolahmu lalu kamu lulus dan berkembang. Konsekuensinya jelas, waktu bersama kita berkurang, intensitas komunikasi pun berkurang, namun kamu terus berusaha membuat semuanya seimbang.

Kadang, kesabaran bukan hal yang akrab denganku jadi tak heran jika ada saat-saat di mana aku begitu merecokimu lalu kemudian merasa kesal padamu. Satu rahasia yang sekarang ku ungkap adalah bahwa rinduku itu tak mudah untuk diucap. Mungkin begitu caraku menyampaikan rindu. Kita berbeda, kan? :p


Kamu tahu, kan, menunggu bagiku adalah satu hal terakhir yang akan ku lakukan. Ya, aku tidak suka menunggu. Jadi, daripada aku menunggu lebih baik aku melakukan hal lain saja. Melupakanmu? Oh... tunggu dulu. Kalau aku melupakanmu, akankah aku mau membuang-buang waktu hanya untuk  merecokimu? Koreksi itu, ya! Catatan saja, ketika aku sedang sibuk di saat kamu sibuk itu berarti aku sedang menunggumu. Sudah ku bilang aku tidak suka menunggu, kan~

Mengerti. Kadang cara kita untuk mengerti sangat berbeda. Tentu saja, isi kepala setiap orang pasti berbeda-beda, bukan? Sudahlah, kadang kamu tidak perlu meminta maaf atas keterlambatan yang beralasan karena aku hanya ingin tahu sebab dari keterlambatan itu. Meski suka menebak-nebak, aku tak suka menebak tanpa kepastian juga. Jadi aku tetap butuh sebuah penjelasan maka aku akan mengerti. Sesederhana itu ;)

Perihal bagaimana tiga bulan yang akan berlangsung, kita lihat saja. Selama semuanya lancar, komunikasi utamanya, yaaa kita akan baik-baik saja (y)

Pesan untukmu selama tiga bulan ini adalah tetap fokus dan hati-hati.

Selamat dan semangat bekerja!!! ^_^

You're the Cure

Yeah, now I have to admit that whenever I feel so angry or upset with you, that's because I need more attention to given to me. And all of it comes from you.

In daily, I can handle all of my emotion when I'm with my mom, dad, or sister. I think that's because I know where I am in my family. In my thought, I'm the first warrior who has an obligation to protect my mom and sister when my dad was not there. In addition, I also think that I should not have to be childish in the age of 19.

Well, in this case... when I feel so tired because all of the self-defense and protecting two women in the house, I need someone who can give me care and love and help and cure and throw my loneliness away. And there you are, the one that I'm looking for.

But... when you're not there for me because you had many things that's gonna make you busy, what can I do? Ya, I know that I supposed to be patient and understand. However, when you feel down and need someone to pick you up then be by your side but you can't, just tell me the way to keep calm on that situation then I'll be fine.

Meanwhile, how if in fact that you can't handle your self to keep calm on that situation? It's gonna be hard to pretend to people that you're fine, right? So, here I am, needing you so much like I've never been needing you before. What a shame, you can't be here.

Then, my anger gets higher and I'm going upset. I'm starting to complain about everything even it doesn't change a thing. Actually, all I need is you. But unfortunately, I was too naive to say that I need you a lot and miss you and even love you. Sorry.

Everything would change, doesn't it? So, let me tell you an interesting point: everything changes when I meet you directly, sit facing each other. Believe me or not, all of my anger and upset are going to melt down.  May I say that all of those happen caused by the warmth of your smile and the way you look at me right to my eyes? That's it.

You're the cure when I'm getting sick after all of the self-defense that I did. I never used to said that I miss you and love you every single minute like you did, right? But the truth that I always try to avoid is those things are often too true.

Don't walk too fast 'cause I'm gonna get tired to follow.
Don't busy too much 'cause I'm gonna get lonely.
Don't disappear too long 'cause I'm gonna lose you for a long time as well.
Don't go too far 'cause I'm gonna miss you.

I think you need to know this: lately I realize that maybe I can love you like you do to me.