Yeah, now I have to admit that whenever I feel so angry or upset with you, that's because I need more attention to given to me. And all of it comes from you.
In daily, I can handle all of my emotion when I'm with my mom, dad, or sister. I think that's because I know where I am in my family. In my thought, I'm the first warrior who has an obligation to protect my mom and sister when my dad was not there. In addition, I also think that I should not have to be childish in the age of 19.
Well, in this case... when I feel so tired because all of the self-defense and protecting two women in the house, I need someone who can give me care and love and help and cure and throw my loneliness away. And there you are, the one that I'm looking for.
But... when you're not there for me because you had many things that's gonna make you busy, what can I do? Ya, I know that I supposed to be patient and understand. However, when you feel down and need someone to pick you up then be by your side but you can't, just tell me the way to keep calm on that situation then I'll be fine.
Meanwhile, how if in fact that you can't handle your self to keep calm on that situation? It's gonna be hard to pretend to people that you're fine, right? So, here I am, needing you so much like I've never been needing you before. What a shame, you can't be here.
Then, my anger gets higher and I'm going upset. I'm starting to complain about everything even it doesn't change a thing. Actually, all I need is you. But unfortunately, I was too naive to say that I need you a lot and miss you and even love you. Sorry.
Everything would change, doesn't it? So, let me tell you an interesting point: everything changes when I meet you directly, sit facing each other. Believe me or not, all of my anger and upset are going to melt down. May I say that all of those happen caused by the warmth of your smile and the way you look at me right to my eyes? That's it.
You're the cure when I'm getting sick after all of the self-defense that I did. I never used to said that I miss you and love you every single minute like you did, right? But the truth that I always try to avoid is those things are often too true.
Don't walk too fast 'cause I'm gonna get tired to follow.
Don't busy too much 'cause I'm gonna get lonely.
Don't disappear too long 'cause I'm gonna lose you for a long time as well.
Don't go too far 'cause I'm gonna miss you.
I think you need to know this: lately I realize that maybe I can love you like you do to me.
